Lessons Learned After 500 Visits to Prison
In 2015, Todd Cioffi paid his first visit to the Handlon Correctional Facility in Ionia, Michigan. While a team of faculty, staff, students, donors, and administrators have poured into the program over the years鈥擟ioffi鈥檚 week-in and week-out commitment is hard to match. 听
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On Friday, September 6, Cioffi, senior advisor of the Calvin Prison Initiative, reached a milestone: entering the facility for the 500th time. Upon this visit, his students, his colleagues, and MDOC leaders surprised him with some special recognition. Cioffi received a custom-made wooden plaque made by guys at Handlon to honor his commitment.听
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On Tuesday, September 10, faculty and staff on Calvin鈥檚 Grand Rapids campus held a reception to honor his commitment as well.听
鈥淭hese are the sorts of things that put it back into perspective again,鈥 said Cioffi. 鈥淵ou plow the ground, your head鈥檚 down, you keep plowing and plowing and plowing, and then all of a sudden you poke your head up and people are like 鈥榯hanks.鈥欌澨
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We recently sat down with Cioffi to reflect on his journey over the past 10 years鈥攁 journey that he almost missed out on.听
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When you were first asked to be part of this program, what was your initial response?听
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I had played more of a counselling role with the seminary to help them navigate the college, just pointing them toward the people they should talk to, what professors would be excited about this, and I was more than happy to do that. So, I very much supported the idea and the vision.听听
I ended up working on and off with David Rylaarsdam for about a year. Saw the proposal go to faculty senate and get denied. And that really upset me quite a bit. I was surprised about how upset I was about that because I didn鈥檛 have a horse in the race. I was helping, but it wasn鈥檛 my thing.听听
So, I talked with some faculty after that and just said you know 鈥榯his potential program is spot on with the mission, it鈥檚 just spot on, you know that?鈥 And they agreed. 鈥楪od will work it out. We鈥檒l figure it out. If it鈥檚 God鈥檚 will, this will happen.鈥櫶
So, the second time it was proposed to 黄大仙高手论坛, it was accepted.听 听I again was surprised at how good I felt about that, like that is really cool, I鈥檓 excited about this. But I was still working with the congregational and ministry studies (CMS) department, which is why I came to Calvin, and didn鈥檛 feel like I was prepared to leave that behind yet. So, I actually said no twice, and then they asked a third time saying, 鈥榳hat if we had co-directors?鈥 and then I naively thought you can take two jobs at 50% and it鈥檒l stay right there at 50%. But that was a good fit actually.听
How many visits did you make to Handlon Correctional Facility before you realized saying "yes" was the right decision?听
I knew within the very first semester that this is exactly where I needed to be. I started imagining year after year what was going to be my exit strategy for the CMS department. I kept thinking if I could do this prison stuff full-time, I would. Which again was kind of surprising, because it鈥檚 very nonconventional as a professor.听
Every time I go into that prison, if around those students for five minutes, all is well. I don鈥檛 know how to explain it 鈥 it鈥檚 just been so life-giving.听
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What's the most important lesson you've learned over the past 10 years?听听
The students have taught me that God is up to something and that you don鈥檛 have to grip so tight, you don鈥檛 have to try and ensure things come out right, because I mean I work with guys who have been locked up for decades and they are men of faith, men of joy, hope, love, gentleness, patience. I feel like I鈥檝e been doing time with them for these ten years in a way. In many ways you are working in an environment that kind of breaks you, it doesn鈥檛 give in, it will outlast you and then how do you respond? For several years I responded with anger, frustration, doubt, wanting to quit, and it was the students who began to minister to me in those moments, and said 鈥榠t鈥檚 going to be okay, God鈥檚 got this, it鈥檚 going to be okay, you鈥檙e fine.鈥櫶 And it finally sunk in recently. It took 500 visits. This was a lesson that took 500 visits.听
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There are a lot of things we can do in life where we frankly are in control. You don鈥檛 know you could do a PhD, well what do you know you did it, you can. Well, how hard is it to publish, well you figure it out. There鈥檚 a lot of things that you do kind of control and the more opportunities you have to control things the more you think you should be able to control. And for once in life, I ran up against something I had no control over 鈥 I think it鈥檚 really a faith lesson about you can鈥檛 literally change the world sometimes and how do you be faithful in a world that you can鈥檛 change. And low and behold it was a bunch of convicts that could teach me that 鈥 and I鈥檓 the guy with PhD in theology.听
What's something you know now that you didn't 10 years ago?听
When you start a program like this, especially because we committed from day one to having about 2/3rds of our student body be guys with life sentences 鈥 you kind of go into that thinking I know that it鈥檚 good and right to commit to this, so the vision is good, but then you鈥檙e like 鈥 early on 鈥 oh that guy鈥檚 not going to be able to change, he鈥檚 been like this for 25 years incarcerated and nothing鈥檚 going to change here. And I found myself lacking the hope that the guy had.听听
And now after all these years I am kind of like I think just about anybody can change, God-willing, with God鈥檚 help, with God鈥檚 grace. I鈥檝e seen some guys I thought would never change, change completely, completely. I mean going from a person of sheer anger, hatred, violence to one of kindness and love. So now I look at all people like anything鈥檚 possible here. I have a renewed sense of humanity, frankly.听听
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What's been the biggest surprise during this 10-year journey?
To get into our program (Calvin Prison Initiative) you have to have seven years or more on your sentence and it鈥檚 a five-year program, so nobody is supposed to parole, and we鈥檒l have our 19th guy parole here in about month. I never thought I鈥檇 see any of our students in this program on the outside.听
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And now here鈥檚 why I鈥檇 never thought I鈥檇 see that. Because when we started the program, I began to get to know these guys to the point where one guy鈥檚 mother told me you know him way better than I do. You have been with him so much for so many years and you talk about everything. And when you are talking to a guy who is doing a life sentence, a natural life sentence鈥攕o that鈥檚 no ability to parole鈥攁nd he鈥檚 come to terms with the fact that he鈥檚 going to die in prison, and you are looking this guy in the face, and you think 鈥榤y word, talk about something out of my control.鈥 And then there鈥檚 a profound sadness that comes, you think 鈥榦h, I really care and love this guy. One, I鈥檓 never going to be able to enjoy this relationship on the outside, but two he鈥檚 going to die in here.鈥 And then all of a sudden one guy finds out he鈥檚 getting out.听 I鈥檓 about as excited as he is, and to watch them all of a sudden bloom with hope and renewed desire to live and pay it forward. It鈥檚 kind of like a resurrection, right? They kind of come to terms with their death in a sense. They kind of knew where they were going to die. I mean who knows that? They kind of know how they are going to die, what it鈥檚 going to be like, and then all of a sudden now it鈥檚 all different. Now the whole world is open again. I didn鈥檛 think I鈥檇 get to experience that with them, what a gift!听
Why do you keep going back week after week, year after year?听
I鈥檝e reflected a lot on Matthew 25 all these years, when Jesus says when you feed those who are hungry, clothe the naked, visit the prisoner, you are actually visiting me. I can absolutely give testimony to that鈥檚 true. 听
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I鈥檒l just say that sometimes in a more conventional environment, a more standard environment, church, whatever, sometimes my sense of spirituality gets a little dulled. I don鈥檛 find a reason to jump up and down and say, 鈥榯here鈥檚 Jesus!鈥 And there (in prison), like I said, I don鈥檛 think there鈥檚 ever been a time I鈥檝e been there where I don鈥檛 have a moment where I don鈥檛 have to say, 鈥榯hank you Lord you showed up yet again,鈥 so there鈥檚 almost this sacramental quality that I鈥檓 actually experiencing Christ. In the same way we would talk about bread and cup. When you go, there I鈥檒l be. When you receive this one, there I鈥檒l be. I can say Amen. Amen.听
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I don鈥檛 know what I would do frankly if I couldn鈥檛 go in. Unfortunately, that idea crosses my mind every so often and I honestly try to quickly put it out of my head, because I don鈥檛 want to imagine not being able to be around these guys. Some of them have become such dear brothers to me that if the day would come where I could not see them or visit them, I don鈥檛 know what I鈥檒l do. It would be a huge part of me that鈥檚 missing. 听
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Love is really the right word. I think I鈥檝e been taught a lot about love in that context, even with all its challenges.